They're out to get me

After months of waiting, i got the call that i got the job ^_^ i start training on tues, but i had an appointment with raphael on tues :((( thats been scheduled for a couple months now.....go figure, huh? hopefully im not required to go with him....if so that'd suck lol. I told leigh yesterday...i felt guilty, she asked if there was any way to change my mind...but what is there to do? that job makes me miserable :(( and i really need this. it's a really good job, i'll be sitting at a desk, taking phone calls for people in credit card debt, working mon-fri 40 hours a week, with benefits, holidays off, personal days, all that jazz :) training is $9 an hour, and i do that for 2 weeks, then im on like a probation period for 3 months, and i get paid $10, then after that period is up, i go up to getting $11.50....thats like 1800 a month before taxes.....thats like 1k more than im making now, rofl. maybe i can finally save up to get a real apartment, and have nice things, and go to school. I'm really excited about this :))))) I've been unhappy for pretty much my whole life, and things are finally moving in the right direction. which usually means things are gonna go really bad soon......hopefully everything stays groovy. plus i'll be working with my sister ^_^ shes the best. :) im gonna try to see if i can get into her shift....they hired me at 12-8...and shes like 9-5...if so thatd be awesome :) we could eat lunch together :)) i havent spent time with her in forever :(( cause shes always working when im avail and when shes avail im working, lol. but anyways im really excited about this :) i havent posted in forever...cause my lifes been so blah...boring...nothing exciting, nothing changing, i just play WoW to pass the time cause RL people havent been the nicest :( I'm gonna be a lil sad about leaving tho =/ michele wasnt too happy when i told her :( and im really gonna miss working with her, cause shes so awesome ^_^ i hope peoples dont hate me when im gone

what the hell am i doing.....

I got the Jenkins title. ^_^ My first title. I'm so happy. :P

stupid deathknights...blaming me and saying i can't heal when i've been playing my toon for 64 levels and theyve been playing for like 5. they cant even tank and hold aggro, and they blame me for not healing them...how can i heal if everything is attacking me and im trying to keep myself alive. h8....grrr.....

I wanna be cool....

i hate not being able to have a secret without everyone and their mother finding out....

Sorry bout my last post, i was just ranting, and i shouldn't have written it. I was actually hoping that no one had gotten a chance to read it, so i could set the entry to private. please disregard everything i've said!!!!!

Today was fucking bullshit.

That's all.

-Carmen.

i found grim's collar today, and it made me sad....because he's dead now......

and i just got a call from alain, saying amelia can't work today and they want me in..... :'( today just keeps getting worse. *cries*

Begin Scene

A young couple sits in a car at a stop light, they are talking, laughing. Overcast skies accompany roads wet from freshly fallen rain, the atmosphere thick with moisture. A squealing of breaks straining to stop can be heard in the distance. All of a sudden, A car rams into the young couple, they are noticeably shaken and confused as to what just happened.

End Scene.



That is the true story of my morning. before i left got into my car, i actually thought to myself, "the roads are wet, i hope i don't hit anybody, my tread is kinda low...traction, please don't fail me!" but i didn't have to worry about me. :'( i was chillin at the stoplight, and i got hit! i got out of the car to assess the damage, i didn't really care whether the other driver was okay. i had just a few large scratches in my bumper. the other guy had it worse. his whole front was smashed, his headlight were broken, and the hood was bent. He kept asking me if i was okay. i was sooooo shaken and scared i thought i was going to cry. he hit us so hard! i was shocked the damage wasn't worse. I just kept saying i was fine. He had a nice car too it was a dodge, looked brand new. He was like "my name is (i don't remember, lol), and I'm not going to lie, I don't have my license on me. i was trying to stop from way up there but couldn't, i don't have my license. are you okay?" yada yada yada. at the time i was barely paying attention to him, I was just thinking, ANOTHER accident???? i can't afford this, what am i going to do? he's going to call the cops, a report will happen, my insurance will go up again. but i could sue, and get money, but i dont have money for lawyers....dammit. the only thing i heard was that he didn't have a license on him. so i thought, he doesnt want the cops, my car is fine, i think im okay..... so i was like " do you wanna just drive away? I'm okay with that...." and he was okay with it too, of course, so we just left.... but now that i'm home, and the initial shock has worn off...i'm still all shakey, and my neck hurts, and i have a huge headache.....i hope i'm okay. :'(

Ridiculous.

I am sooo tired... Just woke up, about to get ready for work. But today's sunday, and it's gonna go by so fast! So that's good. ^_^ Alain invited me over to play Magic tonight. I dunno if I'm going to go. I'll probably just come home and crash. :/ We'll see.

I need to return my library books! I keep forgetting! And I've had them overdue for like a week. I think so far the late fee is at $4.50 and they're closed today, so I'll have to go tomorrow if i remember! D:

Magic was fun :) i didn't die first, so that made me happy ^-^

on the downside....i think i'm dying.........

i'm so tired.... :'( i just wanna go to sleep, but i told alex i'd go play magic tonight. so i am waiting for raphael to finish an instance and hopefully we'll be on our way. its already 10:15, and he's not done..... and alex lives kinda far, like forest hill, thats far for me..... i'm gunna be dead by the time i get home.

WoW is addictive...... O.o

i'm so boring...

and i hate being everyones bitch

I am the biggest poser geek eva!!! I used to go on and on and on about how much i hated Magic, and how i would never play it cuz is sux so bad. Then, everyone wants to play, and I feel left out, and wanna be one of the "cool kids". So, being the poser that I am, I'm all like, "I wanna play too!!!!" So I learn, and.............I....LOVE........it!!!! XDDDD I already bought a deck, and a deck box, sleeves, and ordered some more stuff online. Why am I so lame?!?!1

i need to do something better with my time...

i would like to do something constructive....

I wanna be better...in general.....

I've been doing a bit of soul searching..... and there are a lot of things i wanna change in my life.... I need goals, I've been looking into religion, and stuff... I've been trying to keep a positive attitude, well, before i was being a bitch, that is....I need to appreciate life...but i dunno.... we'll see what happens ^^

I need to work out and do some excercise... I'm getting fat... and I look gross.... it makes me nauseous sometimes, lol ._.;

I dress really lame... Maybe i should do something about my hair....its really frizzy and poofy.... maybe i should do something about my face? Damn it, if only i didn't look so SPANISH!!!!!!!!!!! -_- why am i so dumb? lol

I wanna make something cool and crafty! i dunno what....maybe i should actually make a corset????? i wanna make a whole renaissance costume, like with the skirt and stuff.... theres so much stuff i wanna do!!!


i'm so weird.... i get all random when i type... gomen! DX

i've been such a bitch lately! and i feel really bad about it because no one deserves my bitchness... well, most people at least... XD but i really do feel bad! i've had a lot of stuff happening lately, and i've been cranky. ;-; i'm sorry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!